Tag Archives: Ugh

Sick Day

I have been trying to write this post for the past few hours and nothing is coming up right.

Writing is the most affected by my sickness when I do get hit with it, which sucks, but at least my big tell for being sick is that I get huge apathy for any kind of productivity, which is convenient. I like convenient, but I hate feeling like this. It took me most of the day to get in the shower yesterday and finally get dressed in, you know, clothes that aren’t pajamas. My normal routine gets knocked off its feet for something that favors rest, and I can’t manage to get a word in edgewise that actually sounds decent.

Sometimes, at least, I’ll manage enough that sounds like it could pass and I move on to the next thing, but everything I have to do in a single day takes double the effort when I’m under the weather.

That’s what this post was going to be about, more general than about my personal experience, because I feel like you get more out of it if it’s left a little more ambiguous. Everyone has their own quirks when they get sick, their tells. Mine is apathy. Someone else’s could be simpler, sluggishness, that’s associated with the disease’s symptoms.

Just because I can’t manage the effort of writing something eloquent when I’m sick doesn’t mean that it couldn’t be the opposite for someone else, too! In which case, I’m envious.

Sick days are lumped in there with days where your head can’t settle down, when you can’t get creativity jump started, or when things are frustrating, you’re stuck, writer’s block won’t let go… The list is seemingly endless, and I keep finding more days to stick in there. Thankfully, though, they happen rarely enough, but when they do, it’s a nuisance and a half.

Or several nuisances. I can never keep up with the conversion rates.

With a bottle of nyquil in one hand and luden’s cough drops in the other, I can only hope that this passes swiftly, and I can finally get back into a good writing curve. Stay careful this season!

-The Novice Wordsmith

Advertisements

Uncertainty

Focus is shot, relaxation is really scarce right now and I can’t just sit down and come up with thoughts that aren’t all over the place.

Days like this affect everything, and sometimes it’s more than just a day. You scramble to come up with something, you’re searching all over for something that can help you think better and get your head together, and you turn up with empty hands and more frustration. To call it a bad day would be taking credit away from the good things that have happened, but it’s hard not to when all you can seem  to do is swat at thoughts as they race through your head.

I don’t have a cure for this, still, but sitting down and listening to music has helped before. When you force yourself to just get out what’s in your head, sometimes it can be more successful than others. You want to write something specific before, but then when you shake out your head, there’s a specific something that’s stuck, that you can really let go about.

If you can afford it, don’t worry about certain writing obligations on days like these. And if you can write at all, do it to your heart’s content, whatever can be shook out. Grab hold of whatever you can and don’t let go until it’s all gone.

Just in case you find your head too hectic to actually write, don’t. Forcing it isn’t going to be enjoyable or even yield very many results, and if anything, it’ll make things more sluggish, taking longer.

It’s been hard trying to come up with something today, one of those days for me. I’ve gone through several good topics and came up with just about nothing until now, but there’s nothing I can do but ride it out. Tomorrow will be better. I’ll have a clearer head, one that’s not just running wild with ideas and thoughts and what have you about everything else going on in my life.

Don’t be afraid to take days like these off and return to writing when you can. It’s so much better when you have clarity. At least, in my opinion, though I’m sure there are those that thrive in the calamity.

I am, however fortunately or unfortunately, not one of them.

-The Novice Wordsmith